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I dont know what suitable title i should put so i guess a smiley should be good enough already. Yesterday 21st september, i went for the 2nd and the last wake for my cousin bro.. Arrived there kinda late and everyone was waiting for us, (cousins younger than him) to start the ceromony. And so when the time came after the chanting sessions by the nuns. I took a final look at him before the coffin was sealed by nails. All of us were not allowed to look as we don't want his soul to feel trapped (ng seh dak) to leave us. Then his coffin was pushed into a hearse and i was given the honour to hold his altar where i will be leading the group of people holding his altar and also as his final journey before being cremated. 4years ago, I still remember me and my cousin bro were given the honour to hold my grandfather's 'altar' and i couldn't believe that today i will be holding his. The feeling is weird as I always felt that he's alive. Then the time came when his coffin is pushed into a big furnace, this time we were able to look as it was our last sign of respect before his coffin being cremated. Then as the flames in the furnace lit up, we bowed and the furnace lid sealed and we can only claim the bones tomorrow.

22nd september 2009

Had a cold bath this morning, as i gotta carry my cousin's urn to his final resting place in a Wat (Siamese temple) Started at 9am, and I was the first to pick any bone that I saw first without choosing and to place in the urn followed by his parents and relatives. Then the rest of the bones were crushed and placed in the urn. Next i had to carry the urn and a long joss stick to signify his soul. And after some chanting by the monks he was placed safely and sealed. Went back to my place after that. Gotta get ready for my exams tomorrow. Tq to all my friends esp for their support. Though it might take some time to recover but i just need the time to do so. =) till my next post..

Notice my cousin bro in the center behind my grandfather.

This picture was taken 5years ago

Good luck to all taking exams till this friday..

Sincerely signing off,

Juen Sern

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Life's unpredictable. Tribute to my cousin brother

Today it started of rainy day as it was raining since the wee hours. Everything was fine and seemed normal till i got a call from my cousin notifying me that my cousin bro which is closely related to me had suffered from a heart attack and is having difficulties in breathing. The first thing that went through my mind was recalling the incident where this happened to my grandfather 4years ago when he too passed away in his bed. After that call, i was hoping praying hard that he'll be fine and i thought he was going to be fine as he is really big size about 1-2 feet taller than me. So i was pretty confident that he will be fine.. Then my cousin called again 40minutes later informing me that, he had passed away. Hearing that, I was just speechless. There was nothing else i could think of saying. I just held on to the phone and said nothing. I was in shocked, the person that i had laughed with, talk with all over the years had just gone juse like that. I was close to him as my family had many girls so we boys usually will stick to a group and start joking among ourselves. Yeah. Guess everything's not going to be the same anymore this upcoming CNY. And after that my uncle took me to my aunt house to visit them. As i walked up the stairs, I had this sorrow feeling and when i reached his room there he was, lying on the ground covered with a blanket. He was the one that always brought laughter to me and now i stood infront of him helplessly. Nothing can describe how i felt when i saw him. My aunt was a very strong women. Throughout the entire day, never did she shed a tear and it must have been hard as I could see from the look of her face that deep down inside, losing a son meant alot to her. I'm just astonished to see her keeping calm when friends and family came over to offer their condolences. And at times tears could be seen at her eyes, but she wiped it off and attended to her relatives and friends. Yeah many unexpected things happen in life. Now all i can do is just to think of those happy moments when i have with him. I know he's in better hands now with God and my Grandpa =).. May your soul rest in peace and you'll always be remembered by us all. Take care my cousin bro.

Loh teik eng

21 years old

17th June 1988- 19th september 2009

Life's unexpected and

I hope all of you will live your life to the fullest everyday

Life's unpredictable